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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

11.06.2025 02:43

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

Why did i forgive my father ?

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I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

The only rule us 5 kids had .

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

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I never cut or harmed myself..

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

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He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

Ive learnt so much.

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Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

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I was writing from the time i was a small child.

My life is so biszare .

This is how, and why children get BPD.

Why do I want to suck cock tonight?

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

I don,t even have a pension.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

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When she asked me how she looked .

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

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Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

As i do to all so called friends.?

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

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Especially a lifetime of it.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

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He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

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And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

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His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

Why are Trump supporters so incredibly stupid?

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

I think the readers, may guess!

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

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He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

So whats the point in blame.

All the time i was locked up.

What did i know ?

I couldn’t, believe it.

She loved him until the end.

We were not on the streets..

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

I was very sick at this time too.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

Was to survive, this bastard.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

My family never makes their pension either.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

And i lived it daily.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

It was going to be , some day.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

Who then, do I blame.?

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

One cannot live in the past .

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

She was in good health!

I waited trembling.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

She married twice! .

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

I know ,a lot about trauma.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

I will be 64.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

Comes on , in middle age.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

(And it was in our own minds.)

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

He knew the spot.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

But ive been too sick for many years..

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

So, i spoilt her more .

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

Would this be the day?

I was 9 years of age.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

I write beautiful poetry .

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

This is soul school!.

She found it foreign!.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

But it wasn’t much.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

He resisted the act ,that day.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

Im still living with it.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

I was seconnd youngest,

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

We all went to grammer schools

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

I have no regrets .

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

I said to her

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

She wouldn,t have been !

On the 31st of Jan this month .

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

Put me off passion for life!!

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

I was scared of men, in general

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

But, we were locked up after school.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

I could never make a relationship work though!

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!